our pool on the beach in phi phi 😍

our pool on the beach in phi phi 😍

straight to the hotel roof pool, bangkok… after 22 hours traveling ☺️

straight to the hotel roof pool, bangkok… after 22 hours traveling ☺️

i think you should message me while i’m in thailand so that i feel a bit missed even though i won’t be. it’d make me happy. thanks, i love you xox

scruffy saturday

scruffy saturday

— Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

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meliss says i’m not allowed to take drugs in thailand 😩

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and since we all came from a woman,
got our name from a woman and our game from a woman,
i wonder why we take from our women,
why we rape our women, do we hate our women?
i think it’s time to kill for our women,
time to heal our women, be real to our women.
and if we don’t we’ll have a race of babies,
that will hate the ladies,
that make the babies.
and since a man can’t make one,
he has no right to tell a woman when and where to create one.
so will the real men get up?
i know you’re fed up ladies, but keep your head up…

it seems tha rain’ll never let up,
i try to keep my head up, and still keep from gettin’ wet up.
you know it’s funny, when it rains it pours,
they got money for wars, but can’t feed the poor.
say there ain’t no hope for the youth and the truth is,
it ain’t no hope for tha future.
and then they wonder why we crazy…

it seems it’ll never let up,
but please…
ya got to keep your head up

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i know nobody asked but i’ma write how i’m doing for my own reflection.
i am good right now. i’m not overly happy/emotional like the highs i would get before. i am stable and content, without being numb.. which i take to be a good sign that these new meds are just fine for me. i’m also getting therapy.

i am mostly excited because i’m flying to thailand with my three best friends in about 35 hours. i’m so lucky to have those girls, 13 years strong ❤️we’re going to have the best time 😁

i have amazing family who are all there for me, and for each other. today, i seen my grandad cry, but because he’s the greatest man in the world, and i can’t put into words how much i love him. my aunty julie has really been looking after me lately, she’s the best (and she just bought me chanel makeup😏💗)

a couple of weeks ago i got all crazy and went from freaking out about being with someone, to wanting instant security- to the point i felt like making a phone call to try to make it happen 😳 i wanted to be fixed so bad. but now i have calmed down and levelled off, and i feel somewhere in between. i keep thinking now about i should be braver and stop being so scared of getting hurt.

i am so broody it’s actually weird. i feel like my mum around babies. i get overwhelmed by the craving to have my own when i see one. today at the hospital i was falling in love with little new borns 😍

i am determined to get nice strong thighs so i can lap-dance. maybe that’ll help me get pregnant too 😏 i want to like my body again and have started working on it.
i am annoyed jusssst enough to motivate me to leave my job, after they tried to tell me i did wrong when i didn’t - and to be honest, i can’t cope with that when i’m more intelligent than the people above me in there who have the control.. super frustrating when you know you’re right and someone wrong has more power than you over your own job. and my best work friend has just left so there’s more reason to go.

i mentioned that i think i’ve found some direction to take my search for a phd in, so i need to stay focused on that when i get back. thinking positively though ☺️


do u ever just cum and it ain’t great and ur like “ok that one was super lame”

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me, meliss and nic looking for rachel

me, meliss and nic looking for rachel

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— Anaïs Nin

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